Today. And This Month.
I said something about being "on vacation" this morning and Clay corrected me. He said something along the lines of vacation is escaping something, and that we weren't escaping, we were simply "resting and rediscovering life".
An author, Wayne Mueller changed my life with this idea in his books. I have read several of his books now, "How Then Shall We Live", "Sabbath" and "Enough". All we so beautifully written and centered on slowing down and living life present. Those books help me look at this life event more like a gift rather than something tragic. God knows we all need rest, respite and re-centering. If we listen is up to us.
Clay and I have always dreamed and wanted to do something like this road-trip with our kids. We have threatened this adventure to the universe many times, but then when the gravel meets the road, it was a clear and distinct choice we had to make. We could have kept going and running the "rat race", stressing and looking for a job right away letting fear based mentality rule over us. Or we could accept this gift from God and rest, rediscover what our hearts are needing and longing for next.
No Wrong Decisions
I love what a dear friend shared with me recently that her youngest, adult ,daughter said to her after she had lost her job and was fearful of going out to find the next "right" job. She very wisely gave words to her mom, "What if there are no wrong jobs or wrong choices for you Mom? God is in all things!"
So what if this place in time where we are is like a buffet? What if God of the Universe released Clay from a job of burden so that he could choose what is heart wants to do next? That job served its purpose and we were very thankful for it, but the purpose was finished. We are very much at a place of embracing there is a season for all things, being thankful for that season and releasing it. By releasing the hold or the resistance and stress, it only frees up space for the next beautiful opportunity.
We're Not Using Our Legs Today!
So here we are on day 7 of our trip and I find it no coincidence that we need rest. Clay and I had planned this rest day between the four different theme parks and I fully expected the kids to resist and be upset and beg to go to a theme park. I was completely wrong! They were begging us for a rest day late yesterday afternoon. Even going as far as to tell me that they weren't sure they were going to walk today at all. I pray they are learning life well from us, after all isn't that what every parent wants?!?! However at the end of the day, as I say often to people... I fully believe they are really here to teach us instead of us teaching them".
The camper looked like a hoarder situation was happening and laundry must be done. So I literally pulled out almost everything in our camper, cleaned up and reorganized our living situation and making it more user friendly. Those of you who know me well are now cracking up to how much this is a mirror to how I do in my home every six months or so.
Today I noticed I was feeling a bit antsy and couldn't put my finger on it for a bit and then realized that this is about the time on a normal trip that I have to think about going home and back to "real life". Honestly, I just now feel like I am unwinding from life. After checking in with my heart and reassuring myself that I am only 1/3ish of the way home, I'm breathing easier. Also I am tremendously happy we did Disney on the front end rather than the back end, it will be nice to unwind even more than this marathon!
Recap of yesterday: Hollywood Studios
Once again, a blast!!! Different kind of fun but still wonderful!
Good: Sleeping in and just not being in a hurry to get to the park. Smaller and less foot intensive park, with lots of sitting to watch shows. Finding a gluten free burger at the park.
Bad: The kids constantly doubting us, every thing we go to next on if they are going to enjoy it or not. For the record, there is not ONE single thing they haven't enjoyed and I ask them this question EVERY time they start in on their doubting.
The camper mattress is getting harder by the night. So far I haven't bought anything for myself on this trip...my gift to myself may end up being a memory foam mattress topper for my camper bed, HA!
Awesome: The JOY, the calm! Rosi asking me in every ride or show if "those" people are real or robots and who's controlling them. Colin deciding he wants to be a stunt man when he grows up, leaving the park before Eden fell apart. Paying for $20 parking and only riding on a 3 min tram to get to our car! The weather is amazing (a touch warm in the sunshine), quiet in my heart and a cleaned up camper.
Off to Animal Kingdom tomorrow!
Love, Grace and Peace,